I'm SO Happy!!!

I am such a passionate person.
I just love to give. In everything that I do I give my all , do my best , go above and beyond. It shows with my relationships with my God, my work, my academics, my loves, hobbies, interests.
It's all me and I love it!
I want to give it all away and make others happy.
I want to share, love, form , create, transform the hearts and minds of children and people.
If they had only one ounce of the Love that I feel everyday, their little hearts would jump for joy.

God Bless the little children, and my humble hands and heart to give them the gift of love, trust and tenderness.

So I see...

So this is what it's like to move on.
It's crappy, harsh and full of reluctance followed by acceptance.
It's when you realize he won't call or visit because he's too busy , as he's always been , with his work and future prospect.
When it doesn't matter anymore if you see him out or not because your heart won't skip and you won't feel awkward.
When persons mention his name , you feel neutral other than reminiscent or excited.
Having fun with others and knowing that it's alright , and you too can be just as happy or better without him.
Being truly happy for them no matter where life takes the relationship that you two shared. Being able to admire or think about him at a distance, and there's nothing wrong with remaining to care.
Slowly feeling relaxed and free to go out, meet others and enjoy yourself without guilt or second thoughts.
No longer does the thought of my ex, creep in at every corner or back door of my mind.
The future is simply an open, blank paged book, aching for me to compile and record the words, thoughts and experiences that will shape my novel called Life.

BORED

I need a change of pace. something new: environment, job, opportunities, friends, atmosphere, mentality, spirituality.......everything. It's slowly happening I'm just being impatient. Not sure what else to type just a bit annoyed, frustrated.


Crap.

A Decleration

I Declare that at this age, this moment in my life I will not be torn down , deceived or harmed by the trivial , unrighteous things of the world.
I am in the world but not of it.
A chosen individual and not an err.
Misjudgments and wrong doings will be very few if any because I will use wisdom, self-control and strength.
The Ways of the Lord will be my own.
My limitations and barriers are non existent.
Always virtuous and hungry for knowledge.
My dark chapter has ended months ago and a new one has been discovered.
That which has wounded and surrounded my forefathers will not live with me.
I shall change the course of my generation and my life.
The misdemeanors, subconscious ill acts end now; they shall be no more.
I Declare it and it shall be so.
My Faith and Lord will see me through.

Anticipation

He has been calling me. Since the beginning. His voice has only become so deep and apparent this year. His voice has only echoed so loudly through my spirit within these past few months.
And I?
I am ready. Quick to learn, anxious to see what is in store for me, Eagerly awaiting that opportunity. That glorious day when all is revealed and I see what He has always seen as my purpose.

I walk slowly but confidently through the stages I must surpass. His hand with me always, His shoulder near me and Him beside me. I wish to be led and come out a leader, a crusader, a disciple.

I don't understand it.
Can't possibly explain it but I love it.
Indulge in every minute of it. Smile gleefully at the thought of it.
My heart leaps knowing that I will be where He wants me to be.

Ahhhhhh...........

It's a GREAT day to be ALIVE!!!!!!!!!
I haven't had a happier moment than this. Realizing and knowing that the Lord has be with me every step of the way. Looking back at past friends, companions, associates and how they had been present for my good only. Through God they changed me , and he has been watching over me. Saved me from so many snares and thorns. Has given me the strength to live and move on. What a fine thing this is!!
I'm ecstatic. Fantastic, Head Over Heels Enthusiastic.
One cannot be so delighted , than to know that there Savior has and will be with them always.
If the Lord is for me, who can be against me?
I can do all things through Christ who has strengthened me.
I am but a child in the gentle arms of her loving father, being pnished for my ill deed but later cuddled and loved because I am His, and wonderfully made.
There is no one greater than He.

I am a crusader for Life.

People.

I have discovered that by wanting , striving and aiming for the best one is placed at a certain disadvantage because no one thinks the way you do and it is rare that you will be placed in a group that shares this perspective on life(in general). On the contrary, one would believe that they are placed at the top of the class for thinking this way but this thought can be so easily defeated with the presence of others who aim low for a living.
I haven't given up but I am exhausted.
You'd think you wouldn't have to tell adults how to be mature, responsible and reliable but this too is a common err.
They leave me dumfounded; I have yet to be amazed.