This year has truly taught me to trust in God. He has continually proven his strength, wisdom and power throughout all aspects of my life. The fast that I began last week was only the beginning of my experience. More and more I am earning not to rely on my own understanding but to see the hands of God through it.
He has given me a job that has exposed me to a variety of persons, each with some characteristic that will help to shape me into a better person. Through Stacy I have learnt to grow and maintain a relationship with God on a daily basis. With similar personality traits and beliefs she has become my newest friend. Nicole has been more of a logical and observant who doesn't want me to settle for less while Debbie has shown me that despite an illness like mine u can be happy, successful and live a good life. My aunt has been encouraging, wise and knowledgeable, not allowing me to be doubtful , swayed or unmotivated.
These persons all play a vital role in my life and I am continuing to learn from where God has chosen me to be.
I proclaimed to God that 2010 was the year of my fiance and myself; as a couple and individual and God has followed that every step of the way.
2010 is a beautiful gift I would never give away and I am happy and blessed for everyday of it I am given.
Thanks be to God. It is only through him am I alive, well and joyous. Amen.
Friday, May 28, 2010
Monday, May 17, 2010
Fasting
On the path to discovering God, vision; me.
Day 1 - Monday May 17th, 2010
I instantly awoke from a disturbing nightmare but proclaimed in my mind that I would fast. I had never considered fasting before and was unaware of how life changing it would be. I chose to abstain from food for a week long period with confidence that I could do it. I was hopeful, eager and determined. Four great works occurred that day, assuring me that blessings were all around me and I am doing the right thing. I was able to locate my uncle/mechanic who did not travel yet as planned, my apt. was opened ( thankfully! we had locked the key inside), a very important set of medical notes were prepared within a two day span when the doctor before took almost 2 weeks and a guy I had tracked down and lost contact with for weeks told me the account would be settled on my birthday! Can you believe it?! on my birthday, a double blessing!!
Yes my stomach aches and food smells good but there's a purpose behind this. After hearing about the fasting of yesteryear and today I became fascinated of the experience, healing and breakthrough I can receive from fasting. It became a phenomenon. Although I often cannot sleep without food, I will do so tonight and every night until my goal is reached and I am further in my mission.
p.s. my boo was such a sweetheart and he encouraged me to keep going, also that the blessings i received may disappear or become harmful: I love him :)
Day 2 - I was tired, drained and hungry. ( to be expected I guess)
Day 3 - I was seriously tempted to eat but gained inspiration through the words of friends: "Don't break it, keep going" . I was also told that it is a vow made between you and Christ that should never be broken. There was a television that reminded me that I can achieve something I didn't think I would do. The young man attempted to climb a mountain with anticipation and enthusiasm, but on day 3 he fell weak and thought he wouldn't make it, but he did not let that get to him and by six he reached the top!
He and his folks were so proud I realized I cannot let food have that power over me; it's just food! I would be limiting myself and God by giving in although I was very much tempted to. It gave me the strength and encouragement to sign praises, be proud and be strong.
Day 4 - I decided to end my fast late this afternoon I felt a calmness and happiness about my decision. I accepted that I made it for 3 full days and reached a point of understanding. I will eat something small and continue to praise and worship God with joy. He has really taken me to another plan of control, discipline and patience. I did some feng shui on my desk today and I came in with a mindset to just clear everything away, b more assertive and say NO when necessary I've really released so much this week its amazing. I found joy in fixing/adjusting things on my own such as cleaning the printer, rearranging, fixing a computer problem. I smiled, did it easily n quietly , found it quite soothing actually. Removing food has really helped alot and I gained wisdom. I feel more comfortable with my office/surrounding space and efficient.
I achieved what I had proclaimed in the beginning and more
I believe the life lesson here was acceptance, patience, doing things in time and to not be so excitable. I do not regret my decision and I love that I have experienced such a breakthrough. I will fast & pray more often as a way of meditation, test of faith and becoming closer to God. - May 20 - 5:53pm
I will also be more patient and tolerant of myself rather than harsh.
Day 1 - Monday May 17th, 2010
I instantly awoke from a disturbing nightmare but proclaimed in my mind that I would fast. I had never considered fasting before and was unaware of how life changing it would be. I chose to abstain from food for a week long period with confidence that I could do it. I was hopeful, eager and determined. Four great works occurred that day, assuring me that blessings were all around me and I am doing the right thing. I was able to locate my uncle/mechanic who did not travel yet as planned, my apt. was opened ( thankfully! we had locked the key inside), a very important set of medical notes were prepared within a two day span when the doctor before took almost 2 weeks and a guy I had tracked down and lost contact with for weeks told me the account would be settled on my birthday! Can you believe it?! on my birthday, a double blessing!!
Yes my stomach aches and food smells good but there's a purpose behind this. After hearing about the fasting of yesteryear and today I became fascinated of the experience, healing and breakthrough I can receive from fasting. It became a phenomenon. Although I often cannot sleep without food, I will do so tonight and every night until my goal is reached and I am further in my mission.
p.s. my boo was such a sweetheart and he encouraged me to keep going, also that the blessings i received may disappear or become harmful: I love him :)
Day 2 - I was tired, drained and hungry. ( to be expected I guess)
Day 3 - I was seriously tempted to eat but gained inspiration through the words of friends: "Don't break it, keep going" . I was also told that it is a vow made between you and Christ that should never be broken. There was a television that reminded me that I can achieve something I didn't think I would do. The young man attempted to climb a mountain with anticipation and enthusiasm, but on day 3 he fell weak and thought he wouldn't make it, but he did not let that get to him and by six he reached the top!
He and his folks were so proud I realized I cannot let food have that power over me; it's just food! I would be limiting myself and God by giving in although I was very much tempted to. It gave me the strength and encouragement to sign praises, be proud and be strong.
Day 4 - I decided to end my fast late this afternoon I felt a calmness and happiness about my decision. I accepted that I made it for 3 full days and reached a point of understanding. I will eat something small and continue to praise and worship God with joy. He has really taken me to another plan of control, discipline and patience. I did some feng shui on my desk today and I came in with a mindset to just clear everything away, b more assertive and say NO when necessary I've really released so much this week its amazing. I found joy in fixing/adjusting things on my own such as cleaning the printer, rearranging, fixing a computer problem. I smiled, did it easily n quietly , found it quite soothing actually. Removing food has really helped alot and I gained wisdom. I feel more comfortable with my office/surrounding space and efficient.
I achieved what I had proclaimed in the beginning and more
I believe the life lesson here was acceptance, patience, doing things in time and to not be so excitable. I do not regret my decision and I love that I have experienced such a breakthrough. I will fast & pray more often as a way of meditation, test of faith and becoming closer to God. - May 20 - 5:53pm
I will also be more patient and tolerant of myself rather than harsh.
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