For You.....

Dear Friend,

My prayer for you today

Is that the Word of God touches your soul;

That His light shines brightly through your heart and eyes.

I pray that He showers you with Blessings,

And that you glorify and reverence his name joyfully.

Be still….and know that He is near.

I pray that His love surrounds you,

And his guidance empowers you.

May you keep Him in your heart always.

Your sister in Christ,

M

Observation

No matter the outside appearance of others, it's when we peel theses layers that we realize that pain, tears and happiness knows no race, color or gender; they are simply human.

Fearless

The Lord is my God!
In whom shall I fear?
Though man may try to hurt me , destroy me, batter me and leave me in darkness,
The Lord will forever be my light.

I fear no man.
The Lord is ruler over all things.
On Judgment Day all is called to meet the master, and to answer for their deeds.
Will you be there?
Will He remember and acknowledge you on that day?
He loves all and answers to none.
Let the mountains and birds cry out in awe of all that He has done.

You are part of a higher calling, the Body of Christ;
Strong, Resilient, ever growing and never changing.
Let no one question your destiny,
Your place in the world and in the Lord.
Be Fearless.

If I.

If I should only listen to him,
In the greatest of confidence and follow him.
Let his word be my compass,

If I would not allow the devil to change what the Lord has for me
Manipulate my mind and fool my heart,

If I should just trust in him, be patient and humble: He will answer me.

'God can can take my breathe away
Grant me my deepest wishes
He knows my heart , my mind my soul'

I have found him

I have truly met the Love of my life
He kisses my fingers and toes with such sweetness, such...simplicity
His eyes shine when he looks at me
And his smile brightens any room
He.......has........captured my heart : undoubtedly.


If I could see the Lord's face, I would thank him
Thank him for creating such a wonderful man
For blessing me with such a loving image of himself
For giving me the gift of love in a human form.

I have never been so radiant,
So alive...
So happy.

I have been touched more than mere words can describe,
Held with a yearning and passion that only few can fathom
I'm in love!
And it feels Amazing.

Just Forgive

I can let go
I can move on
I can breathe.....

This battle is not my own
The Lord will see me through
I am safe in his arms

Thank you

I'm in Love

You know you're in love when......

His voice makes your heart tremor
Their fingers make your skin instantly warm
When he's the first thing on your mind in the morning and the last person you speak to at night
When their presence brings you instant relief and joy
And your smile is unfading
When you can't stay angry at him for more than 30minutes max
When his kiss lingers on your lips
When seeing him at 6am keeps you ecstatic for the remainder of the day
When you look at him and all your stress just melts away
When your heart and soul is his entirely,
And you feel completely engulfed by his love and security.....

Yes, I'm in love.

In time

One thing we must all learn to do in due time is to let things go
Everything has a purpose, a meaning, a moment in our lives that can lasts seconds to a lifetime

Lord, guide me in your way and comfort me in my times of need
When I feel lost, disappointed, alone, sacred and defeated ; be My rock, always.

In the End

In the end we're all sinners
Merciless slaves of the wicked and evil deeds that surround us

In the end,
Friends, family and loved ones all betray us
Your self love an respect is all that can never be driven away or replaced.

In the end it is we who hurt ourselves the deepest
Wound the most severely ; harm the most


I too wish that this world had not existed
That I be born in a better time, a better environment, a safer set of days

But alas.....

In the end, we can only stop, thank, remember and converse with the Our Maker
Who will make things right in his own time.
His place will come,
There will be heaven on earth,
There will be a great act of condemnation on all who are against the Lord and his people

............We should not worry

..............We should not fear

For we are all well kept in the arms of the Lord.

Dear ex

I'm angry that you cheated and I'm the one who had to pay for it,
I'm angry at all those months you lied to me
I'm angry that I gave you my best and my all
and you continued to be wishy washy and drag me along
I'm angry that I was myself ; a good and loving person
and you weren't
I'm angry that you'll continue to go around to your friends and talk about me
in the worse ways possible,
No matter what I do in my life or what you've done to hurt me.
I'm angry that very few people will know what kind of a guy you were to me
and that the majority will get whatever BS you give themI'm angry that although I am dear to your mother & sister that I'd have to speak with them rarely because I despise you.
I'm angry that you wasted my time knowing it wouldn't last and that you were was doing your dirt; yet refusing to let me go,
Although I wish that you had......
Your petty , immature and childish acts and words have completely consumed any pleasant emotion I had towards you
I pray that God blesses you because I no longer want to have anything to do with you.

- A Woman Scorned

Touched

Yesterday's devotional spoke of crying out to the Lord in a time of need. Of moments when we feel that if He is watching , then why are we in such a predicament and is He really there. One must know that these are not questions of a lack of faith but more so of a servant seeking answers from his master; a student from his teacher, a child from their parent. How will one know if you are confused or seek an answer if you do not ask? Does the bible not state: 'Seek and ye shall find' ?

That devotional became more personal to me yesterday. I buzzed in a familiar, devoted guest into our doors and he quickly approached me with outstretched hands , saying that I must quickly hold his hand. I hesitated at first and ad inquired why. He said it was to receive this blessing. I placed my hands in his and listened as he spoke prosperity into everything that I touch. I agreed and in seconds it was over and things went back as they once were.

I believe the Lord was speaking to me .... :)

Plea for Life

Topsy Turvy,
Pulled from the Inside Out.
With arms of frustration wailed feverishly in the air; she gives up.
She lets go of all that she had hoped because there is nothing left to grasp.
Scabbed knees, bruised hands and an etch stained heart,
She continues to cling with the little she has left; but lacks the strength to carry on.
' I cannot....' she thinks with grief,
'What is there left for me?'
'I am but one in a billion of persons; all struggling not to win at this race but just to finish,
Just to make it....

She looks up in anger, screaming out: 'If it were up to I dear Lord, I would not continue!'
'Remove me from this place of great discordance,'
'I cannot bear this on my own.'
'I've been tarnished,
'I am but a faint shadow of what I once was...'

I don't think anyone understands me.
Sometimes u reach a point where u ask if anyone loves you
It's like what the heck am I here for?
When in reality I don't really want to know.
It's just a question that echoes through the air......

Direction

Am I where you want me Lord?
If not, then lead me.
Shower me with your many blessing
With acts of kindness that my human heart cannot fathom
My my faith be as endless as the oceans
And as profound as the rivers that make them
May the works of my hands be fruitful
May my words soothe the hearts of those that have suffered, and bring joy to those who are weak,
Love me Lord, as you had loved your disciples

Take my heart and mind, that they may be pure and positive
Open my eyes to the beauty of this world beyond its sin
And to the eternal joy that I will experience through your word

As I reflect, I know that your love is as indescribable and adjoining as that of a mother and her child
Because I am your child.
You have claimed me; I am yours
Let not any person or act of unrighteousness go against that which is yours
That whom you have blessed and made holy.
I have found my refuge
With you I am safe
As I marvel on the goodness and ever forgiving nature of my Saviour: I say thank you.

Truth.

Love isn't a bed of roses
It's the thorns that cover and ascend to that great centre in which beauty blooms from within

Misery

Today I have this long sinking feeling of melancholy on my shoulders.
and trust me , the piece of plastic glove found in my meat loaf , from a nearby cafe didn't help either.
So of course, by the time I got hit on by one of the construction men in the convenience store I did not have the time, much less the energy.
His big ears, were just not cute......

Think I'll take this evening to just relax and enjoy being with me :)

Everyone needs a breather at some point....

Invisible..

Just like the space above,
So is the depths of my love
Empty......lost....unseen.
If I could fix it,
It would include you.
And all that I tried to undo would unravel
Into the simplicity and closure of a past,
That no longer counts.
It'll never amount to the knowledge and experience I've gained.
Through the depths of my eyes,
Lies the sinking demise.
For all that was before,
Is no more,
but here I am.
I can no longer be; invisible.

He Gat Game

What the heck is up with guys and their 'game'?
I am just sick of it. They say they'll call you, you exchange numbers , he was respectful and polite, so why am I getting approached by some rowdy chick through texts and a phone call askin who I tryin to reach and when I ask him he act da fool. 'I dunno....', 'You sure das my number.......' 'I don't recall that' boi,PLEASE...
Just be for real. Don't run the girl around in circles, don't spill out lines and fake words. Suck it up! Be a man. If you ain't gon call don't say you will. It is a waste of time and effort. My truth and faith towards guys is leaning on nill and I've heard of other experiences that females have had that have simply turned them off. Man , screw it! you can't have your cake and eat it too. Dis ain no ghost move, get from behind da bushes and face up.
Aww,and dat 'friends' s***, is the worse. Dude, if you ain into just hanging out with the girl, having a good conversation and relaxin then don't front. This whole mixed signals thing is garbage. Open and friendly one day ,distant and defensive the next. Who you tryin to fool?
Ladies, you've got yours too. 'I gat a man' . Girl, you just usin that line to feel good about yourself and make them think you're taken so they'd want you more or to not be bothered but flirt and mess around anyway. You ain gat a man, you gat an excuse. An excuse to do s***. Ever hear a faithful chick give a guy a lecture on y she can't cheat on her man? No, cuz it don't happen. She just don't do it , she ain gatta talk about it. If she busy givin you a list of the whys and can't then she's already considered it to some point and she don't care.

Be real, stop the s*** and grow up, damn.

Talk to me ppl, I wanna hear from you.

Who knew?

Who knew I could be so angry?
At all the things that would hinder me,
The people who brought destruction to me,
Persons who had no faith in me and
At a broken childhood, leading to a disruptive past.

Who knew I'd feel so lonely yet full of rage?
At everything I can't change,
The mistakes I cannot repair,
The family members outside my grasp,
The hurdles I can overcome periodically, but not always.

Who knew I'd want another life?
If I had a choice I'd change all that held me back.
Confront the people who broke me down,
And cut off any person or anything that I learnt later had the worst of intentions for me.

My years and life would be arranged in such a way,
That no false witness, bad word or thought would harm me.
I'd be a rock: strong, stable and silent.
I wouldn't feel as I do now: exposed, vulnerable,defensive...... angry.

Failure to myself and to my Lord

I'm constantly failing you aren't I Father?
Why Am I falling to these past actions so easily?
They disgust me.
Make me feel like less of a person.
Remind me of where I came from and what I felt like,
Used to feel like.....
Used to be..... thought I was.

Save me Lord!
I want you, I know I do.
But I do I want you enough is the question
Enough to let go again.
Enough to resist these things, foot down and head shaking feverishly at sin,
Enough to believe in myself and you.
But I didn't want to be here again Lord,
I didn't want to be that person.
Oh Lord, help me,
Save Me.
I know what it's like to be lost, confused and ashamed.
I don't want to be that way
Not even for a few seconds.
I Love You,
I Need You,
Please, Please
Be With Me...........
Be my Rock Again,
Be My Shelter,
Be My Father,
Make me new and whole again.
I can feel that part slipping away.
Not as easily as sand , but not as concrete as the foundation I had before.

I'm not that victim,
I'm not that girl again.....EVER.
She's dead to you & I.
I am here now , and that's who I want to stay.
Please. Forgive me Lord.
Know that I am Sorry,
And I need you.
Fill my heart today,
Make it pure,
Make it Right,
Make me whole once again.
I want not to feel defiled, unclean.
For only beauty resides in God's Children.

Love Me Lord,
Please Come In.
Take Me Back.......