Foolish

Dear Lord it was foolish to think I could escape or more so that you had left me.
I hid in shadows, dark corners and broken alleys afraid that I was far less than I once was;
A blurred image of what I once was,
I was afraid.
Afraid that I would not be able to have the two men I love in my life, as an important part of my life equally
That I had to choose, and that it would hurt.
I trusted the flesh, took his word as truth and felt compelled that it was something I had to do.
But Lord I am ready. Ready to make that sacrifice and dive head first into your spirit and back into my unwavering faith.
You will lead him to me , you will send my husband for me , I have no need to worry.
All that I ask will be given, and he will love me unconditionally.
Help me to understand and accept this Lord.
To take his words to heart and not to ear
To rest my faith and trust in him as I do you.
Teach me Lord, teach me to be wise and truthful
Humble and forthright
Be a girlfriend, a wife and most importantly myself : always.
To serve and love you through all things
Thank you Lord,
Thank you for never letting me go, and loving me.
I Love You.