All my life I've been told what to do
In a negative way , how to live my life
How to be a woman at the age of a child
How to be a guinea pig instead of a woman
How to be violated when I'm respectable
And I've TRIED...
Oh, how i've tried , to just be perfect
Be all that they ask and more
To be and do the impossible
So when I'm wrong it hurts
It hurts becuz i've tried my best
and it went unnoticed
Or it simply wasn't good enough
It hurts becuz i can't give anymore
Simply becuz there's nothing left to give
To disappoint feels like a stab to my heart ,
my self esteem
my will power
I aim to please and to do that only
When I can't or don't
I feel useless
As though i''ve failed
And not just myself but my loved ones
And I need to get their acceptance back
Because without it , I can't survive
I live for them becuz inside i'm hollow
I don't know how to survive
I need to heal...
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